If I am to go on this world in suffering and pain, should I make it worthwhile? Is it better to make the suffering worthwhile? Do I get brownie points because I did good and was good? I can not feel good, but that is only one of three. I can glorify the spirit in my suffering. Can I really only choose to choose? Would it make any difference to know? To know that I am doing good and that is good? Why care whether I made the right choice? If I choose to go on living, should I also choose to do something more with that life. If I despise this suffering, then would it not make sense to make effort to help others to understand suffering as others have done for me? Does it matter to help other people.