I am ….. OVer here

Oh yes I know body
You want me to freak out
You send along so much frustration
and disapointment
YOu want me to make it all special and amazing
right now
Can’t do it
I am a wimpy normal dude
That is it
So
Yup just have to wait for this restless feelings to pass
Trying to rationalize
is going no where
Like making a tree grow faster by
telling it to grow faster
Doesn’t work like that.
Have to weather the weather of this season
YUp
I don’t like
In fact I rather hate it
Ahhhh frustration
Let us be filled with this feeling
LEt’s gorge in it
Let’s jump in it like a puddle of muddy water
That was always fun as a kid right

Right

Just wanna just wanna be okay be okay with this self
Though not actually I see
I actually don’t want what is here
That is the fork
I don’t actually want to just be with it because I don’t want it
Yet this is what is there
So instead shall I be okay wanting something
else
While here is what is growing in the plant pots of my soil
I suppose I could do that.

Yup I have so many desires and dreams and fantasies
How nice they are
Okay, okay.
I know they are not real, I will not let them up because of that
So what if they are not real
I shall aspire to make them real
Though I would like to not

Burn myself

Over it.

Be accepting of my hate and despair
Yes I know, redbear, you pine so.

Poop.

Long have I hated my desires and my pleasure
and my whims and will
Denied what has always been there
I am done with that
Please crazy cow, take this golden crown
Take this golden scale
Take this
golden paintbrush and canvas
And this golden scrub brush

Take this golden
boy
and let him
be
a boy.
Let him be accepting of the nature of pleasures
let him alone
Enough with the breathing down the neck.=

Enough with the dizzying rules

Yes I have so many things I want to be.
Okay.
Accepting the difference between ideas and reality
IS so difficult
It is okay to have wants and needs and desires okay
Okay okay
okay okay okay okay okay
okay
LEt us jump in the puddle of life
Or walk in it or sit in it or be p leasured by it
What is so devious about pleasures.
Enough with the snoby snobby snob.

Yup I am not superman
I am
Over here.

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