Hey hey hello what is this what is this story this mind continues to throw up what is this what needs to be resolved and why is it so upsetting to this body. Here is the fantasay: of sticking it to the man of saying, "and same to you, with knobs, you bugger" of fighting whomever might think to put me down. of saying, "why must you hate on your students", "do you think being mad at us will make us work harder, want to be better do you really think that, that your disapproval will well up a great motivation for musical betterment?" What? really? Yes yes this mind says that I didn't stick up for myself and that is a failure. That I must stand up for myself that I must must that we all must stand up and fight when put down. That that is the stronger way that we must all be strong I am so tired of needing to be strong. Or is it it strength to be the one who gets up again, or is it the one who makes the swing? Is it the one who turns the cheek and say, "hit me on this side, you fool". This all all so pisses me off. This macho fantasy is so alluring and so redolent of bore. Hey hey hey Sky, I know you want to, sky. I know you want to stand up for yourself. That you feel you must, sky. That it is some kind of requirement for inner peace. You know, you know you really don't have to. Makes me cringe to say, but I believe you really don't have don't have to be strong. We really don't have don't have to stand up for ourselves. It is okay okay okay. It is no requirement. You really don't have to. Please please please, sky. Yea, we feel we must be strong, and and and hey sky, hey hey hey now. YOu know it is okay to feel like that.. And you really don't have to. It is okay to feel wanting to punch those assholes in the face.. To pick a fight and leave with a bloody nose, and to say to my beautiful women, "I am a fighter". This dilemma of machismo has so long been a struggle such a struggle. Yeah it is okay to struggle, Sky. It is really okay okay okay okay. Okay to dream , okay to want to fight. I want to fight. I want to fight. I want to . I want to be kind, I want to fight. I want to say, "fuck you, you fucking fucker". It really pisses me off to be looked down upon, yeah, yeah that is okay. We really don't like to be not respected. Hey, sky, sky ,sky it is okay. You know you know. Yeah. Yeah. I want to be respected. I want to be liked, yeah, sky, we do. It is okay. You don't have. We really don't have to. Hey sky, I know we don't like to be a wimp, and that's okay. we don't have to be strong. We really dont have dtoo. Don't don't don't don't don't have to be strong. don't have to be so awesome and amaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing. I want to be amazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzing for the ladies. for the ladies. I want to be kind.