Hey now, hey, hey, hey now

Hey Sky, I know, I know you feel
you feel so much, but,
you really don’t have and
I know, I know you feel you have to
get along with everybody and everything, but
you
……….you really don’t have to
………………………………………………get along
even with yourself, you don’t have to. It is okay
Even, you don’t have to get along with you family
It’s okay man, it’s okay.
Crazy cow says life is a movement, there’s
Nothing that needs to be done
Nowhere you need to go.
Here to there and there and there to here
and
here and here and here to there and here now there
and over over over under there and all around
and here and there
there
I know, I know, I really see you that you feel
you have to be strong and wise all the time, and
it’s okay
……………….you really
…………………………………. don’t have to
be strong and wise
all the time
or at all.
I know sky, I see sky, I really see you try, and it’s okay.
And I see that you want to be

Without doubt,

and That’s okay, and

…… you really
……………………..don’t have to.

You can it’s okay. YOu can do these things, it is okay too,
and
………………………………………..just know you don’t have to.
You don’t even need to feel loved or love others or yourself
You don’t have too
I know sky, you think you should never upset anything, and
that’s okay, that’s awesome, and

,….. you really don’t have to not upset anything.
I know you want to make
everything special and amazing all the time, and
that’s a wonderful thing.

… you
…………… really don’t have to.

I know, I
………….know, I see, hey now, Sky
I see you want to not feel aching and that is okay
It is okay to not like the aching,
You don’t have to be a superman or saint
You really don’t have to feel
that you must never feel aching to be okay.
Okay.
okay.
Aching is aching and it is okay to dislike the sharp eggshells that litter
the insides.
You don’t have to feel that you are a super Buddha and accepting of all.
Don’t even
have to be happy.
It’s okay

And I see, I really see, down to the bones that you
want
to feel that you understand and feel safe, and
well,
you know
……………..it’s really okay to not.
……………………………………………It is okay.
There are no demands.
That is what it is to believe in crazy cow.
To believe in the chocolate crazy cow
To believe that there’s is
a moving
……………breeze
……….b
……………r
………………..e
…………….e
………..z
………………..e
Like rivulets down the arm.
Like cottonwood seeds floating in the blue
Like dandelions open and close, and the buttercups, and Rhodos
Like your breathe in and out

I know you really want to be okay with everything
be serene and undisturbed, finding it all very interesting
and explore the motion of the world, and to let your feeling always be
as
they are
and
you know ,

…………..you don’t even have to
….do that.

do what
do
………..that

To do that is to not be okay to freak out.
But you don’t have to be okay with freaking out.
But
Let’s freak out.
There is a movement and motion
Let us be like Zappa.

Walk

How does a man walk when
so many paths
so many mounds
so many holes
abound all around.
They all call out
all saying they are the one
they are security and respsect
they are the freedom
they are the peace
And how, how can he choose.

Finally he
Surrenders
Accepts
Admits
he is not superman
he can not possibly
know them all
be them all
see them all
please them all
he admits to the wisdom
of his place, context, time.
He admits his eyes are
far larger than his stomach.

His head and heart a mountain and his life a sweet pebble.

Dreams are for dreaming and
life is weaving.

What is the overwhelmed
Where is it
Who is it
Why is it
How is it
Just wondering about it it
Makes it go on a little more
Existential hoohaha
Ug
Please, no more
No, not please.
Always asking for allowance
No
Yet it goes on and on
No stopping the automatic
Only can be satisfied in creation
Satisfied in what is there and is not there
Perhaps one day it will quiet down
There thinky thinker monkey
Programmed into this being
To think and monkey about
As if that will solve and mend
That will make the little boy not hurt
He does just want to be okay
Yet can no longer because
This thinky monkey
Claims its dues
Clamors for attention
And this boy know only
Only
To submit
Feels righteous in giving away
Giving away
The power
This boy is so skilled in the monkey mind
Can analyze the world to bits
Including
His own satisfaction
His own enjoyment
His own being into bits and bits to no end
Always finding not enough
Because way way down and back
In the soybean field
In the summer grass
On the tractor road
He was disowned
Sent away
Given up
Not needed
And his only option was to please
And please, and please the world, and
Himself
And he was to think and think it out
And it could never be done
He never found out how to be
to be
God.
So the pleasing game broke
its maker.
Overwhelmed at the task
Only left to be satisfied, and
Choose which fire to sit in.
Flourish in the fire
A new game to overwhelm himself with.

Maps

They say to you
Climb this mountain.
This mountain that cannot be seen
That has no end
That has no map
That has ceaseless traps
And bears and cougars.
And know too that whatever comes
Cannot be fought, only accepted.
If life was eternally needling
Would you do it

Goodness

Why such entitlement to goodness
To pleasure
To not pain
And love
I was not supposed
A tiresome entitlement
Every day expecting the lotto649
To stake in my favour.
I was not supposed
Perhaps it was better when we
Lived all out and died before forty.
When it hardly matters if we hurt.
We let go of feels good.
I was not meant to be so buggered.